I feel down!

Accumulation of things.

1st: Partnership in Design development not working well.
he is testing my patience...

2nd: the more surprising one...
i m jealous a gd friend i made here, got a scholarship....
a very prestigious one...
i never felt like i m in competition w anyone here...
i m very satisfied w my progress here in studio... basically, dont feel threatened...
so i dont know why i feel like tt towards her success..
do i think i m better than her...
n that if i was given a chance i would have been able to get it too?

in nus, i m barely catching up w the fore-runners...
here...i m a market-spoiler until today...

nevertheless, it made me want to go out to achieve something...
i want an arch scholarship too..
i want to at least know whats available...
i never thought of 'earning' a scholarship myself....
always thinking tt parents will pay ...

everything happens for a reason...

now i really want to be big....
the AA.... i want to find out more about u n what i could become if i were associated w u